The Spring Birthday

Alas here comes the spring!!!! 

April has always been a very special month for in all terms, firstly because the assamese new year begins and you can hear the air filled with sounds of the dhul, pepa and husori and see the orchids blooming in the garden, and secondly its the time for me get older by a year because of my birthday... So ultimately for me the month of April is all about shopping and celebration. I still remember the time when I used to plan my birthday 2 or 3 months prior, make the guests list, what will i wear, what will be the menu, etc all paid and settled by my father.  people even know what kind of gifts you would like and you might get lucky with a doll you have longed for or a some pretty goodies.

But as time passes and we grow up and  the 'big birthday bash' is replaced by a hearty lunch with close friends and cousins in a posh restaurant where by the end of it you arrange everything and you pay the bill, all because you still want to look special. And you also want people to gift you things you really want so you ask your parents, relatives and your partner for the specified item or dress shamelessly, all because you still want to look special. And when you feel that the time is not proper or you get a vibe that you might not be rewarded with your most favorite perfume or the classy pair of sandals that you want, you splurge yourself on the items and treat yourself, all because you want to look special after all!!!!! 

Now what do you call that a blessing or bane!! I never knew growing up could be so boring after all the fantasized dreams we use to see when we were in school that independence will be very exciting and joyful. And now when I'm actually all grown up, fully independent to make my own decisions and throw my own parties it doesn't seem like a fantasy anymore, its just life and the desperate need to survive somehow on the limited resources you have!

But what so ever i don't want to be misinterpreted as a sadist who keeps on whining about the old school mentally about growing up and all, I still love April and the Spring air and of course my birthday. :)